My heart. All time stands still. Everything stops. Including my breath. This feeling of panic invades my whole being as I stand and wait. With every hiccup....... we've had lots (3 or 4 times a day), with the spit up after a feed. With the screaming for over an hour before bed. With the red rimmed dopey eyes that look me all tired and glassy after a nap. Why do I let this happen? Or why does this happen? Is it just coincidence or am I looking for things?? He rarely, if ever does any of those things any more. Questions fly through my head..... can 2 bites of broth do this? Really? Adam notices too. It's not just me. We are not stopping..... we will keep going. Today was a *skip a day* tomorrow we do pork. He has been running around and laughing today. He has a bit of a runny nose, but he is happy.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6
Your faith, bravery, and commitment are awesome! Keep it up Jocelyn - you're doing AMAZING - lots of love and prayers for the Carr Clan!
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